[0-4] The people who love you the most use and abuse you sometimes. There are time when you just have to stop and pause and evaluate the situation. I know that, it�s big of us to talk like this when we get older and we feel like we�re the shit and we�re on top of the world, but sometimes� the love, the unconditional love that never stops needs to be put on tabs.

<>You can�t put tabs on love. I know that�s impossible, but sometimes you have to know when to love and give love or when you need to stop and let the person just fight for themselves. The more you take care of them the more they can�t take care of themselves.

It�s hard to make this decision though, although me specifically is my mom, and for other people I know it�s past loves or present friends. It�s hard to see these people struggle, but it�s also hard to keep providing for them, keep giving when you know you need to just stop and just let that person sort out things for themselves. Let them do what they have to do for themselves because one day� the unconditional love won�t be at an arms distance. It may be further and further away.

<>At the same time, there are those people who just love you no matter what. The people who will take out a chunk of their work day to listen to you vent on the phone about how you have scabbed knees and frustrated feelings. The people who call you out of the blue to say hello even though it�s been months since you spoken, but feels like it was only yesterday. The people who love you unconditionally in this way� are the people who cherish the love in every way, friend or more then that.

In other news

<>Something is telling me November is going to kick my butt� the days are starting off bad, but the nights end well. When will the balance come?

He consoled me today� I let him! I�m so weak, but I can�t help it. He truly is someone in my life. I guess today proved it even more. I let him take care of me like he always does. It just felt so good to hear his voice and let it all out to him. I don�t know� he still has that way of just soothing my nerves. I felt weak and in need� I ran to him like the wimp I am. Oh well� enough about that.

Happy Birthday (belated) Amy! Good dinner with her and Johnny last night. Korean Tofu food comas are the best kind of food comas.