[Adjusting...] How much is your sanity worth? Is it worth a monthly rental payment? Is it worth knowing that you can buy whatever you want and not have to budget your money? Is it worth having a parent constantly nag you to come home so you two can be misrable together? I'm still not sure about all that, but I'm starting to think that it's not worth it. I'm sure a lot of my friends reading this are thinking "It's your own fault... you can move out if you want." And well, yes I could if I wanted to, start worrying about bills and what not, and not be able to be as free financially as I have been. I mean either way It's a pretty immature reason to stay home, but it keeps me sane and plus, the perks of living at home... well are great. I'm 10 minutes away from work and well again the whole bill thing is awesome. But again, I know that that's a stupid reason to want to stay home. But I like seeing my stepsister when she's over, talking with my stepdad and yes I like knowing my mom is close by even though she drives me crazy. Applications for grad school are coming up again, and yours truly has started to ponder where I'm going to be next year. Am I going to be here in Los Angeles or will I be trecking up north? I'm prepared either way, and I've told myself that whatever happens I'm going to San Francisco even if I have no car and I'm dependent on rides from kuya and the bart =) I broke it down for my mom and she's not too happy about the San Francisco thing. Lately, especially the past couple of days I've been thinking about moving out. I don't know... my feelings towards my mom haven't been that great the past couple of weeks. I'm trying hard to be understanding and patient, but at the same time I'm frustrated and defeated. She wants me to act a certain way do certain things. Working and the real world never meant for her to have two incomes if you know what I'm saying? Yea I don't pay rent, but I do help out around here which is okay by me... but it's her attitude about the whole thing... She makes it such a dramatic production. Yes I'm an adult, I can help you out with stuff around the house (in all aspects of home not just financially) but please don't make it a bigger deal then it alrady is you know? I feel like she wants me to sympathise with her in order to insure me staying here to do all these things for her? I mean I'll do them regardless because I'm her daughter you know? but still... it isn't cool to abuse that fact. I think for the most part she's emotionally stressing me out. I can't take her clingyness all of a sudden. I know I'm growing up too fast. I don't know... even though I'm trying to front like shes driving me crazy, it would drive me crazy is I couldn't be here to make sure shes okay. It's such a bad catch 22. Happy (belated) thanksgiving! I braved the sales on Friday and all of my Christmas Shopping is finished! And I got stuff for myself =)