[For now...] I got the apology I wanted from exb0o 4 years later. But now that it's 4 years too late, what does it really mean? How should I feel about this? His tone made it seem like he was very delighted to hear from me, and that he was shocked that I would actually care to talk to him. For the most part, I could have left it as nothing and not givin' a shit about how he was/is and how he will be, but I'm better then that and well it's freakin' him. My OG him... way before him, him and him. I was very extatic when I saw the message in my box. At the same time, I didn't want myself to fall into the trap of what ifs. I didn't want myself wishing for the happy ending that I always wanted with him (this was back then) I don't want to find myself wanting him again. I have to keep reminding myself that the 4-6 years we've been apart, we've both grown. We're two totally different people, and well... although he's the og usher song in my life (the one with Alicia Keys not Beyonce... the Beyonce one is saved for him ) I think I gotta just let this one slide. weekend roundup Saturday: Spent the day with Ro at century city shopping (he was shopping not me) ended up on Sawtelle eating ramen and drinking boba! What an Asian adventure. Got back home and went to the Yard House with the fam minus 1 plus 2. Watched the Falcons/Panthers game. Say what you want about Michael Vick but he is one FINNNNNE brotha' oh yea, he's a good QB too lol. Sunday: Did my laundry and then hung out with Mei then I went to the gym. My goal is to run the mile in 9 minutes by the end of Jan. I run a very winded mile in 12 and a half minutes. Last week when I started this mile trend, I ran it in a cool 14 minutes, got down to 13 the next day and then 12 and a half minutes yesterday. When I run, about 4 minutes into my run, I get really winded. I hit this like wall where I have to grab on to the edges of the tredmil to force myself over this wall. This wall last for about 30 seconds and then I'm okay again. Then 4 minutes comes again and I'm forcin myself over the wall for 30 seconds. Kuya and I came to the conclusion that I don't breathe well enough or something like that. So since the end of Jan is a couple weeks away haha (a whole month and a week) I'm going to see if I can run this 12:30 mile non winded. Get myself used to that. Work my way up to 9 minutes. At the rate I'm going it's possible. Supposidly all the sites I was reading last night said that the average non runner runs a mile in 8 minutes. GOOD RUNNER would run it in 6. Since I don't consider myself a runner. I'll go ahead and kick it to a cool 9 minutes. Wish me luck! GOSH, I've been at work for an hour and it feels like FOREVER. It's gonna be that kind of monday.