[Inspiration...] Although I don't know him personally congrats to o-dub on completing his dissertation. It's mad inspiration on my part. He combines the two loves of my life and make them into something that both academia and the real world can kick it with. I like hearing stories like these, I don't hear them very often though. It makes me want to strive and work harder on getting my shit together. I have a long way to go at my 22 almost 23 not quite in grad school yet ass. We'll see. I read my recommendation letter from one of my professors, and he said something really interesting abou me. He was like "Nicole constantly strives to find a bridge between academia and the community." I was flattered when I read it, and suprised that my ideas and thoughts were noticed. I do want to bridge the gap between those two areas, I also want school to be embraced by everyone. Even though I know that school isn't for everyone I think that, for people who say that they just haven't found their place in academia. I don't wanna bust a I walked four miles in the snow story but we're fortunate to have academia accessible to us. I mean as expensive as college is... we can still do it with the immediate ends in front of us. This isn't Pinas where no ends me no school. So all I can hope for is the luck of the draw and the stamina to go on this academic race again. ------ on another note... I'm letting my imagination run wild with this one. I'm trying hard to be sensible. Although so much time has passed, and I don't see anything concrete coming out of this. I don't know. Everything about exb0o is so familar. At the same time it's so brand new. I'm scared to even begin to pursue contact with him further. I know that it will be hard. I wanna try, but at the same time... I need to go into it not thinking what I'm thinking now. I KNOW that I am over reacting, but something about it just feels so... right. THAT IS CRAZY TALK! you are such an idiot nicole! second chances only happen in fairy tales.