[Peep Game] I've been in this weird funk these past couple of days. Work has been kinda blah, and other stuff has just been kinda blah. I'm not unhappy, but I'm not feelin the mood around my areas lately (well mostly work... maybe 99.9% work) I don't know when work turned into a numbers game. One thing that I'll be the first to admit is that I hate anything that has to do with, money, numbers and making "plan/goals" that have to do with numbers. Of course I know that that comes with everything that you do in life, but for the most part, I'm more concerned with "the job and doing the job well" even if it means I don't bring in stellar numbers. it's shit like this that makes Kanye a little too cocky for my blood. Even in a retail job, I hated being concerned with the numbers. I always thought that for one thing, my retail establishment does not pay me enough money to actually care about this shit you know? Secondly, in that particular situation it was my boss who needed to get the ball rollin' and do stuff for the store. Anyhow, nowadays numbers have been brought up in my workplace again, and among the other things that I have to worry about, this number game annoys me to death. I'm not knocking my supervisor nor my executive director for pushing their number game on me, because they are just doing their job, I'm kinda mad at myself for having to play the number game. Taking this job I thought it wouldn't be about numbers, it would be about helping people, but the later would have to go hand in hand with the game that I hate the most. Kinda put things into perspective the past couple days. Why I'm in love with academia and education, and although I don't get stellar grades or will make deans list every semester, I sure hope that my eagerness to learn will earn me brownie points where ever I end up going. I gotta act like I'm working... can't knock the hussle! lol Anyway it's end of the year round up soon, don't think I haven't been thinking about those new years resolutions. I wanna start reading again, right now I'm inbetween two books my before I go to sleep book and my while I'm at the gym book. I gotta go find myself some work now. (to do at my office that is)