[The Ex-Factor] A while back, probably around the time The Fugees all decided to do solo albums there was this article in Vibe magazine with Wyclef. They had asked him how he felt about Lauryn Hill's album and in the article, he said �The first time I heard Ex-Factor, I knew that she was talking about me.� (even though many people probably think that �Lost Ones� was about Wyclef, but that�s a whole different story.) They never dated, but they were friends. Close friends. In the car this morning while the rain poured harder and harder on my car in the middle of the night as I took my CSUN gurl fren home, I thought about the lyrics to Ex-Factor on a friend level, and I thought about my own current situation. I had trouble sleeping this morning when I got home (even though I was really tired) and I know that seriously, I�m at fault for this situation today, but overall� I feel like I�ve done all I can to make this person happy.

The Ex-Factor in my situation is someone I truly love. At the same time, no matter how hard I try, I seem to never get it right. I�m running out of juice� I don�t know what else I can do. I know that I�m not the victim in this set up, but at the same time� I just don�t think I�m 100% wrong. I don�t know anymore.