::Knowing Your Limitations:: I'm slowly learning when to back off...

Although it's nice to have that supergirl mentality in everything that I do, sometimes it can get old. It�s the Capricorn in me I suppose. Sometimes you need to step back and think about the bigger picture. Sometimes you need to breathe, stretch, shake�let it go. (which seems to be my new mantra for the year) I need to learn that I can�t be the go to girl in all situations, and realize that even I have my limits.

As vague as this sounds, it kind of applies to all aspects of my life (both professional and personal) I need to set limitations so that my work isn�t half assed (not that it would be J but I�m just sayin�) I often try to be that one element in the environment that just makes magic happen, but sometimes� the magic can�t happen. I get disappointed, and I try real hard to be �the hitmaker� but in the end� dull drab elevator music would come out either way because I did not know my limitations.

It�s an ongoing learning process I tell ya hehe�

On a side note (but semi related) I had a good talk with Vanessa about my job. I�ve hit this hard hump, the 6 month slump perhaps? Coming upon half a year at my position,

I�ve realized two things.

1. I�m not that thrilled with my job

2. That I now know more than ever that I�d like to be in education, and not educating the world about my professions cause.

Of course, Vanessa was not going to let me get away with venting without realizing what I am really saying (she�s really good at that dude!) Being that I will be here (and I can�t afford to quit) I have two options, I either deal with it and be miserable, or offer �creative solutions� to my office experience. I do have ideas and input on what we do, but I often feel like I get lost in the opinion pool of everyone else. I need to be proactive about the things that I see and not just let them slide by without my input (since everyone added on their input also) David even told me this. I realize now why everyone offers their ideas, it's not because they're being difficult, it's because they are hoping the same thing I'm hoping... that someone will actually listen. I just need to be more assertive in doing so on my end.

To the right of you is my personal description, and in it I say �I need to get past these 5 months as fast as possible.� That shouldn�t be the objective though. The more adult thing would be to make these next five months be worthwhile. To make clout here in the organization in the next five months, and not just sit here and let things just pass me by. I shouldn�t let this setting get the best of me. Although it isn�t my ideal setting, I really should not let it get to me so badly. It should be �I should make the most of the next five months.�

Yay! It�s 12:00 PM� and I�ve been here since 9:30 AM! Awwww yeah!