[So much for early...] I got to work around hmmm... maybe 9:30ish hoping to miss everyone and have the office all to myself. My side of the office was here already (which is fine, because they don't pay attention to me anyway) and now I see that it's 10:20 and everyone has arrived. I would like to thank all my friends who are making me be on a college student schedule. I'm usually supposed to be in bed after the simpsons at 11:30PM or maybe stretching it would be like dude, probably 12, but for the most part... I haven't been meeting that at all. So it's finally Wednesday, I feel like the week has gone by so fast. Tomorrow is Thursday and then Friday. If you wanna make 4 months go by, go to work! LOL Nothing like a cubical to like make the time go by faster. So here I am sitting with my yogurt and granola and well... it's quite boring really. I don't know why I'm posting, probably to pass the time away. I just got to work and I wish I could go home. PHOO-EEY the next big step... *ahem* I don't see myself at my job for longer then... a year. Before I used to think that I could spring this for probably a year (or two) but now, I'm realizing that I really don't want to be here that long. DON'T GET ME WRONG I really don't think it's the people or the atmosphere at work, I just never thought I'd graduate and say "Oh, I want to do this" I never pictured myself being where I am today, and although it's a really good cause I think this really isn't my calling. I started looking into other things, not other jobs... but other professions. I think I should start praying for some kind of miracle that I get into graduate school because if nothing like that happens in the next couple of months, I'll need to leave this place and start a new path. Again, I can't help but feel that I'm not fulfilling my life's dream. LOL whatever that may be. I just know that I'm not getting high off my job if that makes sense. I guess I'm a firm believer in that whole "love what you do" myth. I mean whos to say that whichever career path I pick will have the same affect on me, but I just know that for a fact I'm not feeling it here. Sometimes I wonder if my co-workers are happy. I wonder if they ever feel the same way I do. I wonder if they ever thought they could do more then just this, I mean some of these people have Masters degrees and they are making my kind of money right now, and I just find it so weird that you'd pursue higher education and just end up with my job (which I'm not knocking the job education wise, but I feel that they have overqualified people doing something I feel anyone can do) I'm sure anyone community minded can totally wing this without a BA. I guess I noticed my apathy towards my job because I don't try to go above and beyond anymore. Before when I first started a couple months ago I always wanted to contribute. Always had ideas... now I just sit in meetings and wait to go back to my desk so I can update myself on the lives of my friends or strangers via blogs or just read the news and pretend to work for a little bit. Maybe I'm being too optimistic. I just did not think things would be like this. SERIOUSLY. I think I need a challenge. I think I need something to get me motivated and try to meet a goal or conquer a mountain. I know I'm lame, but I like things like that. GOSH! it's only freakin 10:50?! feels like FOREVER! Save. Me.