//Monday Randomness...// Because I buy into theories about writing as a process I wandered around Borders yesterday trying to find the perfect journal to start journal writing in again. I always do this, and lemme tell you there are tons of journals sitting in this drawer I have waiting to be written in, but this time I actually took a good look at all the journals and even considered buying an expensive one just to force myself to write in it. (But that would have been dumb huh?) Why the fuss about a paper journal? Well once upon a time... around my last semester of my freshman year my computer crashed, and I was forced to update my blog via someone elses computer, the library and kinkos of all places. I was working a late night second job at this pharmacy (partly because my mom was working there) At this place, you got so bored, you'd like die. So I started keeping an old fashioned journal... away from my computer, and just to myself. I look back on those entries pretty frequently. Eventually... I got a computer again and I ran out of notebook space. So much for pen and paper. I've realized that everyone needs a place to vent without having to worry about who's reading and what's being said. Let's face it. No matter how hard we try to say that we're okay with people reading our private thoughts and intimate secrets, we really aren't. No one is that open... no one. Especially because it's an interesting time in my life right now, I've decided to retreat back to a pen and paper journal (but not leaving my blogger world of course) It was refreshing yesterday to write out my thoughts and feelings on these cool new journals I brought I've always wanted a Moleskine journal. Yea I know, their advertising and marketing ploys channeled my inner journalist. I'm a sucka... I know =) So since the journal came in a three pack I designated one for a diary type format and one for poetry/prose/rhymes. Rhymes?! What the rhymes?! Yes ya'll... I used to rhyme all the time. Before it was with HS buddies... then in college my brotha from another motha Nate ignited my rhyming flame again... but eventually it got put out. Secret about me in my car... I have an instrumental CD (I think I told this story before) and when I used to get stuck in traffic on the way home from school... I used to pop it in and flow all the way home. Haha... I know I'm lame. I've also created a "space" in my room for all this to happen. Right now, I'm alternating between desktop/laptop usage and I have a set up for both. (Can you believe my 5 year old desktop still works and has no problems?! Crazy!) I've set it up so that I can actually get stuff done and be organized. I organized a lot of crap in my room too. Threw away some bills... folded some clothes. Cleared out some unused stuff. I'm such a pack rat y0. I'm starting to believe that's a Filipino thing. Along with the journal writing thing, I got some books to read. I'm trying really hard to start reading again. I'm so bad. I feel like it's kind of a waste to purchase books, but I like having them around sometimes. I need to clear my 30 dollar fine on my library card (haha... sounds so high school huh?) At work I'm a block away from a perfectly good library... and a 5 minute drive from the central library so I should save some money and utilize a perfectly good resource for books. And finally, I'm going back to CSUN to make a presentation to the class I helped start. My last year at CSUN my CSUN gurl fren and I decided to eff a Senior Thesis Paper and activate the seminar class in the catalogue (because no one was doing anything to teach it) AAS 495... courtesy of me and jenn (so bow down suckas! yeah I'm talking to you CSUN heads... lol) It started with 20 peeps and now it's up to 40, which means the major has grown tremendously in the past year. I'm so proud! I feel like I'm apart of that growth, because when I started as an AAS major there was like 10 of us. Going back to CSUN makes me think of all my accomplishments while I was at school and I get all sad, because man... I miss causing ruckus on campus and getting stuff done. My professor wants me to talk about all the things I've accomplished and the path I took to get to where I am today. I don't feel like it's much, but thinking back to graduation to my internship to now... that was a lot of growth professionally. I do want to encourage them to intern! We can talk all we want about the stuff we learn about, but actually seeing it in action and doing stuff about it... that's a different story. Man I miss FilAmArts ! It's okay tho... festival time is right around the corner. I'm rambling and it's one already! Time for lunch!