[Mornings and Him] I love the office in the morning. IPOD is hooked up to my computer speakers (that normally don't work) typing away to Talib and noodin' my head at the risk of no one watching. I'm straight. LOL It's soulful up in the triad this morning folks! I forget that the commute to work is horrible around 8AM. What is normally a 10 minute drive turned into a 20 minute fiasco. Hoping to sneak in before everyone... made it in at 9 and our office manager beat me here. Technically... I could just leave early, but then again... I don't want to be dishonest. LOL Whatever... they own me the next two weeks those bitches! Yesterday at lunch, our office manager, the IT guy and I went to Suehiro for lunch. (First and a little bit after JANM for those of you familar with Little Tokyo geography) Haha we were talking about those taboo public topics. "Xanga, Friendster and My Space." I'm not going to front, I use all three... but I think it's just funny when people talk about them in public. I used to kick it with these people who read my blog religiously. They would talk about everything I wrote about and it wouldn't matter me telling them these stories because "They read it on my blog." It was kind of annoying. Do blogs ruin friendships? LOL I think blogs (like email and AIM) kind of ruin communication lines. We're so used to words on a screen these days that we forget how to be social in person. Like a text message. I have love/hate relationship with text messages. I have friends who will text message til the cows come home when they could have just called me and said everything in two minutes. Then again, I feel safe sharing my thoughts on my blog that aren't meant to be vocalized. Right? And the myspace/friendster thing. It's funny. Especially with the age demographic of the office... I'm sure we have all these things. I was found. I wonder what my office manager thinks... LOL probably thinks I'm crazy LOL The office is full again... so much for background music =/ ------------------------ I had not spent time with him (just me and him) in a long time. We're always in social situations where we can only talk for a minute (or not talk about personal stuff) or on the phone. Last night was nice. Just the two of us... over dinner and good company. He showed me his ride... he told me what's up. Not with us, but with himself which is weird because I usually do all the talking (haha are you even surprised that I do?) I'm selfish sometimes. Because he's this pillar of strength for me. I rely on him to save me and make it all better. I call him when I'm scared, sad or happy. He's my everything (in a non romantic way) and I forget that the guy has his own deal too. He's not a very personal person, but last night, I felt bad. As if I wasn't being a good friend. I listened with care... and I evaluated the situation. It isn't about "who hasn't called who." Or "how long it's been since we haven't talked." It's about being remembered and knowing we're there for each other, like good friends are. Everything makes more sense now. edit: I just reread what I wrote... and it sounded like he told me some deep dark secret...but it wasn't. It just makes more sense to me now why he is the way he is and why he kinda pushed me away in that sense. Haha... I was like y0... that didn't sound right.