//Scaredy Cat// The thought of possibly leaving Los Angeles scares me to death.

This has been my home for, forever� and well when friends were moving away to college, I stayed put. When friends and family decided to travel abroad, I nixed my plans of attempting to do so because I thought it wouldn�t work in the bigger scheme of things. Although I hate the word regret I wonder if I would regret not moving far way if given the chance via Teach for America.

I have to think about this whole thing realistically. Most of my friends think that it�s a great opportunity to move I can�t look at this on a personal level. I have to look at the task at hand. I�m potentially entering this program to work. Not to have fun and see a new city and write a new chapter of my life. That�s not even the case. If I get into the program, I would go to work. All the personal shit comes second. No matter how caught up I want to get at the thought of living out on my own and being away from everyone and everything that�s been constant since day one.

A lot of people can just pick up and go, but you know I�m one of those sentimental suckers who feels that everyone around her would not get used to the idea of her not being there. I�m not saying that my friends and family can�t live without me, but I acknowledge my place in their lives. I feel obligated to stay and be that go to girl even though my friends would be the first people to root me on to leave. I subconsciously put that burden on myself, and well that�s just plain stupid. I know.

Realistically the program in Los Angeles sounds the best, but I know that if I don�t use this opportunity to leave� I�d forever live in regret.

That is if I get the opportunity.