[Losing Composure] I should be at work right now. But I'm not. I had to take SB to the airport. He's visiting his cousin up north. I woke up pretty early to take him, chilled a little bit... practiced our tagalog/urban slang on each other while at the waiting area at the Long Beach Airport and off he went. I drowzily drove home and changed into my PJs. It's almost noon. I love the whole cultural understanding conversations that we together, but I have yet to carry a full conversation with him in Tagalog... he's asked me to do so many times. Of course, my tagalog is probably better then anyway 2.5 kid you'll meet, but at the same time... I don't want to sound like a dumbass. I tell him, "You speak English and we're in America you might as well practice." Not that I'm being a dick about things... but just because I'm embarressed. LOL I should be at work right now. There's a lot of stuff to do, but I'm too lazy to do it. Something in the air is making me feel... blah. I'm uninterested in the task at hand, trying very hard not to lose the professional composure that I showed off while my supervisor was away. I think I'm ready for a change. My vacation is about three weeks away. Now that it is, I feel like it's so far away then it was when I purchased my ticket a couple months ago. I think this vacation will do me well. In all my years from High School ending to college spring breaks and summers to the summer after graduating I've never had a break. Never went to Cancoon or any other fabulous spring break destination. Never went on some exciting trip period in the last five years. Sure, I went up north, but those aren't really trips now are they? Seriously... I need a break from this routine I've been in. Maybe something big will happen when I'm away. Losing Composure... dammit I'm a bitch sometimes... at least I admit it. I've been on for the last two weeks. I've shown that I'm quite the busy bee... for a moment I was actually loving my job again, but now... now... it's time to get the ball rolling. 3 more weeks.