[The waiting game is an awful game to play] I hate when people validate their happiness on whether or not they have someone. For me, there can be various ways to have happiness, but there's no need to base it on love. Just because someone is not in your life romantically doesn't mean you should be unhappy. Amy and I had this weird crazy conversations about the men in our life, their place in it and why they fit or don't fit. What comes next after all this, and why should I be concerned about this now, when quite possibily my life may be changing in the next couple of months. While we talked about all this, I began to think about my own situation, and past situations, and the situations of the people around me. Could I just be comfortable with my single state, or am I destined to be alone for the rest of my life? (I know not true, but it's that kinda of night) As dramatic as it sounds, I'm not scared at all of walking through life alone. I don't know if that's just me being a cocky only child, but I feel as though I've been convinced that "almost loves" and "unromantic someones" and "mysteryous strangers who care" are enough to fill this so called void in my life. I confuse myself sometimes though. One minute I'm okay, and then the next minute I'm a typical girl again... a typical person wishing for romance that others have. Bitter? Perhaps, because many a times friends have convinced me that our mutual situations are bareable, but not longterm for me not them. The conversation with Amy scared me (in a good way) a little bit, because it made me realize how serious my situation is. Title-less ventures, and strongholds on friendships make me fortunate to have the love that I have... even if it's not romantic it's like the strongest thing I got. I'm lucky... confused I guess when you're potentially going to be a cat lady... you gotta get 'em anyway you can haha =)