Angela's bday sticker pictures!

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Here's one of our sticker pics from Ann's bday dinner... check out the flickr =) I <3 Japanese Sticker Picture Machines!

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I keep wondering why I feel so tired from the weekend. It was pretty busy now that I think about it. (be warned... a couple "this is what I did this weekend" paragraphs before the thought provoking stuff hehe...)

Friday I had bday dinner for Angela's birthday at Macaroni Grill. Food and service was a little lower then okay, but I still had a good time. Then we headed over to take sticker pictures (an annual ritual for us on birthdays) and turned in early to prepare for...

Saturday Ann and I went to Disneyland! It was awesome! Space Mountain is way better now then it ever was before. We got there around 10AM and was able to do most of the park without all the long lines. The best part was the fireworks! They paid homage to all their famous attractions... and the fireworks were amazing. I'm usually not wowed by fireworks but I was wowed by these! They made shapes and everything! While on 'it's a small world' I always get pissed because I never see a Filipino one. The closest is the Hawaiian kids they got dancing in hula skirts, but really... there is one! She's wearing a Maria Clara dress and shes got short hair. My digital camera was being weird, but she's there... standing all by herself. I'm pretty sure that was the Filipino equivalant... Ann says it's hard because there's no stereotypically way of dressing if you're Filipino, which in a way is true. So I don't feel too bad about the whole thing =) If you're ever in on the ride, look out for her.

Sunday I was really tired, but still made it to work at 7am. Dude... it was so crazy?! Guess who got interviewed for the news. I'm so embarressed! The camera adds like a gazillion million pounds so guess whos gonna look fatter then usual! Me! The story doesn't air til later on, don't call me if you see it though, I'm hiding til then. After work headed home and to refuel and go with David to look for an apartment (for him not me) ... after a couple of hours of that we ate Topz and tried to study, it was then I decided to rethink my whole study plan for the CSET.

Hiding Stuff My work wants me to go to some conference in Minnesota the weekend of the CSET... but I declined because of it. I mean, I wish I could tell them the truth, but I told them that I had some family obligations. I had actually put a potental work thing up on the board, but that's easier to play off because I can take the CSET and do that all in the same day. I wouldn't be able to do that if I were in Minnesota. I feel bad, but what can they do right?

Moral Dilemna I snitched on my co-worker this weekend for not following procedure and protocol. I mean I for one am the queen of shortcuts for work stuff, but never ones to this extent. It was a horrible thing that he had been doing, and well I didn't know the severity of the situation until my supervisor had explained to me what had happen. He took away from the integrity of the job, and really underminded all of us. I know I'm choosing words to make it sound super serious, but it really is. Anyway... it turns out my "snitching" did not even matter because really... stuff I pointed out wasn't nearly as bad as what he had actually been doing. It's horrible. He resigned his position, but my supervisor felt very bad about the whole situation, wishing that she could have caught it sooner... the now. My whole point is at least we caught it.

Love forever Isn't it amazing how you can love someone... forever? I feel that way sometimes with eb and I wonder if it scares him. I'm not in love with him, but I love him. I'm proud of him for all his accomplishments, and I envy him for following his dreams. I'm being ignored because he's on his rap circut right now... I hate it because when he does do shows and stuff he forgets me, when the limelight diminishes... it's all back to remembering me. Haha I feel like a wifey whos been asked about her rap husbands jump off LOL. Today, on my brain off I called him at my normal time I would if it wasn't a race to accomplish ten million thing all at once, and he answered. I did not want to pry or bug... but I know he did not want to let me go.

I want us to work one day... even if it's just for a little while. Does nostalga make you feel this way? He/him says that that's the case all the time. He says that it's the only reason why I feel so strongly about it now, is because of our history. I don't know if that's it though. I mean I have history with lots of people (one of them who is trying real hard to ignite the flame all over again right now!) and well that nostalga of what we had doesn't make me want to get back with that person, but I only feel this way about eb.

It's wrong, unsafe... and full of unexpected suprises. I beat this point down in my head all the time... trying to remind myself that it's easier to love... then to be in love.

Haha... this is what I wanted to write earlier... I guess I remembered all of it.