[Your Words Are Poison�] The wee hours of the morning crept up and I found myself on the phone with eb.

He called from his best friend�s house, talking to his best friends brother about his current love situation. The young freshman in college was having girl trouble, like any guy in college (whether freshman or super senior) and eb with his unique point of view, was offering this boy the ultimate guy fist pump to your chest answer. Hit. That. The young freshman who was innocent and actually more decent then his brother best friend. He knew better then to take eb�s advice seriously. Although eb had a valid concern in a guys world (still having your purity at a legal age), on my end of the spectrum I thought that it was really sweat that he had the points of view about women that he did. He cared about how they felt, and well was a really decent guy when it came to all of this. I was proud and surprised for our college newbie all at the same time, and after pushed chauvinistic point that eb pressed and pressed against him, he thought that eb was stupid =) eb�s point of view was far off from what he believed and knew was true.

They were drinking so I think eb wasn�t really paying attention to me (although when I made my side comments he�d comment back) I stayed on the line listening and offering advice while eb offered his trifling and horrible way of treating women like objects was injected into the conversation. It reminded me of the kind of person eb is, and how so much has changed since we�ve been together. He�s experienced and he�s got spurs that jingle jangle jingle if you know what I mean. I have nothing against a lifestyle like that for anyone (guy or girl) but it�s just something that I personally would never get myself into. This point of view for eb was fine for him because he ain�t my boyfriend but it made me feel uncomfortable to listen to him talk about all this. All of this of course, I knew but just hearing it as advice to his best friends brother had made me a little queasy. When did he become such a dog? I mean he always told me he was one, and I always found it to be 99.9% true, but I never thought it was 100% fact.

The conversation switched to us, and all of a sudden my boyfriend showed up. I was all of a sudden important and cared for. The past hour was spent telling his best friends brother to treat women the way they want to be treated. Hit that and think nothing of it, but when the conversation switched to us, his tone and point of view changed. I could not help but keep in mind these disgustingly chauvinistic thoughts in my head while he told me that our situation was nothing like the scenarios he was setting up for the college freshman.

I don�t want to be a conquest I told him as we continued our conversation. And he laughed and confidently he replied with a You�re not a conquest � I don�t have to try with you� it�s different I like you. His tone changed as if he wanted me to believe him, and his words turned to game in my protective point of view even though he reminded me that remember you said, always be honest with you� and I am� I don�t have to kick game, I don�t have to front. Part of me wanted to believe his reasoning behind this difficult subject, but at the same time� he was also calling me baby the whole night. I was confused and it was late. Like mich says, you loosen your inhibitions past 12 o�clock AM. I kept telling him I�m just another girl� like the ones you were talking about and he kept telling me otherwise and that again� our situation is different.

It�s always different when I�m concerned, and I�m always someone�s exception to the rule, but with that all said it�s unfair of them to think that I would not keep the normal behavior in mind just because I�m different. Triflin�, playeristic, jerk, flirt, what have you. It may be different with me, but I�m not going to forget the underlying truth.

Your words are poison� and I�m not going to fall for it.