[Hidden Agendas]

If you check the flickr, you�ll see new pictures from Tran�s birthday at V20. That place is great. I�m so freaking old� I�m sore today (two days later) because I had not gone clubbin� in forever, I did get my dance on. Dancing is a great work out (as long as you�re not dancing with the dance machine) great times!

I�m trying very hard to not think that 23 is old. As the big two four hits� I�m at a place where sometimes I�m thought of as 25 (by 18 year olds) and sometimes adults as me what high school I go to.

Go. Figure.

Funny thing though, my sis�s BF Steven is an upside down V and as all you loyal readers know, that�s the fraternity that I work with for work. It was crazy because I see Steven at the club and say hello, got introduced and I said, �Eeek! Upside down V�s oh no!� in a jokingly way. Later on, I got looks like� �is that the you know what chick?� Haha� I get that a lot. I invade personal lives you know, but don�t get it twisted I leave the work at work and play at play like all normal working people. Not my fault some of my peers are still in college. Yes, I can dance� it�s not always about slangin� you know. Sheesh. I surprised some of them though. I thought it was funny, especially since I�m working with them this week on their campus.

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Do you ever think that some people have a hidden agenda? Like their actions are what they really try to tell you when in reality, they say something else? Often at times, I feel like I fall victim to this. For example, certain people�s words say, �Yes, Nicole I�m working on saving Bruin Plaza for next week,� while their actions differ from that statement profusely. Another example is, �I don�t see you that way,� yet their actions say, �I want you to know that there is no one else on this dance floor I�d rather dance with then you.� What�s a girl to do?

Shake it off� because you keep on playin� games like you know I�m here to stay. Do you know how true that statement is for me? Sing it Mariah! I got you girl! No one knows your pain like me playgirl!

Fear comes with hidden agendas, certain actions are performed in order to reassure that no matter how badly one acts� things will never change. You�ll always have that one on lock� not matter how badly she tries to emancipate herself from the feelings.

The sad this is, I wish this was all innocent and coincidental� instead� it�s intentional and has a hidden agenda behind it.

Some people have a hard time letting go (three or four entries ago right?) but this time� it isn�t me. Sometimes� we�re afraid to let go because we know that what we want isn�t right for the time being. Like getting a really great dessert when you know that there�s no way after all that food you�re going to fit that all in.
Have faith that despite off timing, distractions, cock blocks, and rendezvous with others� even the strongest of bonds hold through the test of time.

I do believe in the set free theory� yes indeed. I do.