[I've come along way baby]

I�ve come a long way since I was in the place I used to be. My feelings for him not as strong as they once were, and well� I�d never fall victim to the situations from two entries ago, because I�m better then that. Although I�m sad that actions of late make me sad that we�d never be together, I�ve worked hard to be in the place that I�m in now.

He�s done a good job of being the best and being the worst. He�s hurt me twice harder then anyone has ever hurt me before. His wishwashyness and his vague way of approaching our relationship has always been factors to leave, but always made me stay. Now, a year later from when it almost ended, and situations of new people flying in and out of my life� it�s safe to say that the feelings aren�t as strong as they used to be.

My friends say I should walk away from him completely, just until I�m ready to just be friends and not be sad about not being together. I on the other hand, don�t think of it that way. He�s an intricate part of my life, and although he�s become the fill you in when we talk guy from his former status as the go to guy. I know we�ll always be close, and we�ll always be friends. I just don�t want to start the drama again.

I�ve worked hard to emancipate myself from the feelings. And although this has been the toughest thing I�ve ever done, I�m happy that it�s come to this place. Hopeful that eventually my scale of one to ten score of two will be a scale of one to ten score zero. I will get to that place. When, I don�t quite know, but I know eventually� I will.