[Trouble]

Come over, lay next to me�

In my bed, a thousand miles away on the phone� my ear getting hot I was in a familiar situation. The situation I hated. Number one out of the three, still tormenting me, and still driving me crazy (in a good in bad way), no one said it was going to be easy, but then again no one said that I had to pick up my phone. Go figure.

I wanna kiss you right now�

The last three years have left me jaded and well dammit� I�m feeling like I�m going to be that friend you have to invite to Thanksgiving because she has no other place to go because all her friends are taken and she just has a cat. Here I am� stuck in a moment but at the same time� I realize that I make that choice to be in my moment. My own fault, and no one to blame but myself.

I think I just need some definition. Define your existence in my life� perhaps I can actually get something done. Damn. You. Three.

But like Amy said� sometimes the pain of having it is better then the pain of being without it.