.:I love boys, boys, boys, boys... boys I do adore:. I'm not that boy crazy! But today, I smiled because of a boy a boy who still deals with me even though he has no need to. A boy who still helps me, even if he isn't obligated to. A boy who reminds me of another boy who used to be my boyfriend. Ex reminders are awesome, and not awesome in their own way. The Reincarnation of the VEBF (because I totally forgot the nickname I gave him during the fall) strikes again. I saw him a week or so ago during AGC Talent Show (I totally gave it away!) I avoided him because I didn't want to mix business with pleasure so I stayed incognito... until today when I told him I saw him... he said Why didn't you say hi? *Sigh* I talked to him on the phone today, it was nice. Of course all work related, but nice. I need to stop doing this... I need to stop feeling all giddy after our phone conversations. My supervisor is on to me... she knows I fraturnize with the fraturnity boys on a non work basis. I can't help it if I'm fly, and they love me LOL... jk all jokes aside. This ones very sweet... =) *Sigh* I'm a sucker for an old fashioned 626 dude (even though this particular one is an OC boy), who looks like he hasn't aged since high school. Yes folks, I know I'm horrible. It's so sad. It was the first love, the next love and the love after that. I'm a sucker yes I know. To this day I love their steeze, and I'm pathetic for being attracted to it still. He graduated from college tho so that's okay (a UC that isn't Riverside even!). I can have my imagine run wild yes? Is that okay? Can I let me thoughts think unwork related thoughts? No? Sometimes? I didn't think so. The Reincarnation of the VEBF is better then the real thing! Haha... damn. He made my day, why? I dunno I just remember closing my phone and smiling =) Sheesh, has it been that long since someone has made me feel giddy. But this is a special case right? I mean... you don't meet better reincarnations ever do you? I mean... the real VEBF would never have graduated college... seriously he wouldn't have! He worked and that was it. Anyway... I was saddened by the thought of not seeing him next week =( but he's going to make time for me! Of course, this is all out of proportion and really, we're just hommies, but damn... damn damn damn. Gotta love dem warm fuzzy feelings. Related Sidenote so SB has this friend who has a blog who I've met and thought was cute, but thought was gay, but isn't gay and I didn't know about the blog til later. He's quite the clever one, but alas, I can't link him because then that will just be weird. He reads one of the dekerabaw sites, but I forget which one. That totally could be my excuse, but then again I'm plotting it here online so that makes me even lamer right? New layouts change moods... mos def

.:I told you so:. Dwayne Wade named one of People's 50 Most Beautiful People Because Capricorns (or anyone with a birthday in January) are always hella cute ;)

[Losing Composure] I should be at work right now. But I'm not. I had to take SB to the airport. He's visiting his cousin up north. I woke up pretty early to take him, chilled a little bit... practiced our tagalog/urban slang on each other while at the waiting area at the Long Beach Airport and off he went. I drowzily drove home and changed into my PJs. It's almost noon. I love the whole cultural understanding conversations that we together, but I have yet to carry a full conversation with him in Tagalog... he's asked me to do so many times. Of course, my tagalog is probably better then anyway 2.5 kid you'll meet, but at the same time... I don't want to sound like a dumbass. I tell him, "You speak English and we're in America you might as well practice." Not that I'm being a dick about things... but just because I'm embarressed. LOL I should be at work right now. There's a lot of stuff to do, but I'm too lazy to do it. Something in the air is making me feel... blah. I'm uninterested in the task at hand, trying very hard not to lose the professional composure that I showed off while my supervisor was away. I think I'm ready for a change. My vacation is about three weeks away. Now that it is, I feel like it's so far away then it was when I purchased my ticket a couple months ago. I think this vacation will do me well. In all my years from High School ending to college spring breaks and summers to the summer after graduating I've never had a break. Never went to Cancoon or any other fabulous spring break destination. Never went on some exciting trip period in the last five years. Sure, I went up north, but those aren't really trips now are they? Seriously... I need a break from this routine I've been in. Maybe something big will happen when I'm away. Losing Composure... dammit I'm a bitch sometimes... at least I admit it. I've been on for the last two weeks. I've shown that I'm quite the busy bee... for a moment I was actually loving my job again, but now... now... it's time to get the ball rolling. 3 more weeks.

I TOLD YOU TODAY WAS GONNA SUCK!!! =/ (Carpe Diem tomorrow bitches!)

[The second tan of the season...] "What would you do with 30 million dollars?" Mei asked as we retreated back to the real OC and laid out in the sun for an attempt at the second tan of the season. "Lot's of things," I replied. And I began to list all the things I would do if I were able to win the lottery and had 30 million dollars." In theory, winning a couple mil would solve everyones problems right? This was a bad idea to have a four day weekend... now I'm just dreading work wishing that the billboard that flashed 33 million dollars was a sign to me and Mei to buy a ticket and win that pot! The sun beaming down on my caramel skin, I laid there in awe. Wishing that this was the very heart of my exsistance. Laying in the sun in the OC. A mother of two was laying out near the pool, string bikini and washboard stomach. I envied her... yes because she had two cute kids, yes because she could rock a bikini, yes because she had a washboard stomach, yes because she had all that and two kids and was probably double my age and yes because she could probably hang out by the pool and do nothing like this tomorrow. Why am I so lazy all of a sudden? 9:00AM... my goal to get to work tomorrow by 9AM sounds propostorous now that I think about it. Who am I trying to kid? I'm going to mosy on over there around 10:30 like I always do. Time card due tomorrow, staff meeting tomorrow, administrative assistant gone because of family problems. The work routine is starting up again. I can smell the frustration. I have work next weekend =/ There's so much to do, but no time to do it... especially when it comes to work. I think my mini vacation has shown me that life isn't all it's cracked up to be. I hate the R word. I hate doing the same thing over and over again. I hate wishing that money could just grow off trees and I could just live in my condo in the OC and lay out by the pool all day while I made a living off of writing the Great American Novel. I'm H-wording life right now I think? But why? I had a great time with some good friends last night, and everything overall has been pretty cool. And dammit... here I am laying out in the sun, I feel the warmth of the rays kiss me as a embrace its presence on my body. I'm trying to erase the lines that were left from the first premature tan, and the first offical tan of the season. It's my vacation home away from home away from home this place. One minute, I'm in OC serenity... The next minute, I'm warped back to my room... laundry so graciously done by moms, but missed half of the clothes that needed to be washed so I have to do my laundry anyway. Unfolded pile of clothes at the foot of my closet needed to be folded. I can hear SB on the phone as the television acts as background noise in the living room. The light click of the keyboard on my laptop fills my room as I decided to shut off Itunes and call it a night. I stare aimlessly at the wall... wishing for some meaning behind all these jumbled words I'm saying at the moment. I'm still in street clothes. Wishing I had some place to go right now... Dreading the place that needs me tomorrow... and wanting to be somewhere else today.

[Welcome to the real world...] I love this alone time when no one is home and the apartment is all mine. Rolling out of bed at 10AM when you just got home at 5AM, is a painful yet effective way of living life if you ask me. My internal clock automatically wakes me up around nineish to tenish. Nothing past that unless forced (and after mulling around in PJs for an hour or so). The overcast skys damper any plans of getting a browner tan then the one from yesterday. The first tan of the year... what a beautiful shade of light caramel it is =) Summer/Spring is my favorite time of the year. I always hope and pray that summer and spring will bring emotional serenity that no other season, and no other year has blessed me with. I have a good feeling about the next couple months. Although the signs say... it's not my year I guess I'll have to make the next couple of months mine. Whether it wants to be or not! I'm starting to deal with rejection a bit better. I think it's a bad sign that I'm getting used to it. I hope that with all the rejection I've dealt with this year, hopefully I can say yes to something (or something can say yes to me) Last year I rocked! Internship... job on the first try. Everything seemed to be going my way, then all of a sudden, road bump after road bump lately. It's a disheartning feeling to get used to rejection. I never really have confidance issues when it comes to professional type things, but now I'm starting to worry... just a small little pea sized worry lingering in the back of my head, maybe you're not as cool as you thought. Maybe. Welcome to the real world sucka... doesn't it feel like that? Last year... this time the most of my worries was getting invitations out to my family about my graduation party. Now, the big planning occurs... what to do next? Stay at a job or make the steps at establishing a career. My career should happen in the next two years. At least... that's what I'm telling myself. I'm tired of working already... I haven't even been in this game for a year and it's already taking it's toll on me. I'm discouraged and... a word I hardly use... afraid. I'm afraid that everything everyone ever thought of me was a lie. I'm afraid I'm a fraud... I'm afraid that I didn't really amount up to what people expected. These last couple road bumps have made me feel this way. Splashing around in a pool makes you wonder how life could be. I could just lose a gajillion pounds, pimp myself to a successful business man and be his desperate housewife. A couple flying fist later I realize that everything I set out to achive can be obtained some way or another... eventually. I just have to be patient. Being aged 23 proof ain't really anything yet. Splash! Splash! Splash! Envious about how the other half lives... I take advantage of the kidness of my friends sister and splash some more in a not more then 5ft deep pool. Amazed at the fact that people live their lives like this everyday... carefree turning into a prune while in a nicely kept pool, in a comdomenium compound wondering what they'll cook for dinner or which family they will be entertaining next. I love the first tan of the year. Someone please save me... I haven't said that in a while have I? I think it's just a mini message to myself.

Aw, you should be right with me babe, Instead of going around this frantic town And start messin' around With all the lonely, lonely people out there No one to care, won't you come stay with me Because I love you so-- Stay with me, El Debarge

[In other news...] It's back to normal for me now. My Step-Bro (SB from now on) is visiting from Pinas. We're about a year apart so I'm trying to be hospitable (he's older and his birthday just past) we've been doing the family dinner thang lately. Spending somewhat time together. It's weird to be domesticated sometimes, but my little confession is, I've always wanted an older brother... not that he feels any older then me, but it's nice to have him around. When he first got here we really didn't talk, but after birthday dinner for his dad, we started talking a bit more. Apparently we have the same music taste (which is pretty cool) so I'm hookin him up. On Saturday I was going to show him the wonderful world of highlands but we eneded up drinking beer at a pub with his friends. For the Minority/Asian kids you ever wonder what 1 and 1.5ers think of us? I sat there in silence as my 90% fluency in tagalog got me through their friend conversations on Saturday night. Contemplating on whether or not I should bust. SB's friends asked me if I was from Manila or if it was okay to speak tagalog. I got the gist of it, but the Manila slang for sure is not my twang (and I really didn't wanna be a dumb ass and ask... because I have more street cred then that) Overall, the outing made me think about how they think about people who move from PI to the states. How they adapt to their surroundings... and how they become more into the culture that they are currently living in. They have a friend who's in vegas whos in their words "Yo G money... what up G" ghetto. They kinda poked minor fun at it, but I thought to myself "that's how we talk sometime" I wonder if they look down on that. I mean whos to say either of us is right or wrong, I'm sure there really isn't any type of harmony between it all... but in my particular situation I did have fun with them. I was so curious about their outings and lifestyles. I hope more interactions for my investigation are to come =) haha... SB yesterday said, "Nakakahiya sayo, you're so nice" while we were watching TV in the living room. What am I supposed to be mean? Haha... I've kinda noticed that part of my personality. Although I'm not overall nice in the beginning, if I have a good feeling about you, it's cool. I become caucious when the vibe is all out of funk. I'm in one of those types of situations right now. I'm trying to step back then forward. Anyhow... work has been busy... so busy that I decided to give myself the weekend off. Thursday to Sunday I am off finally! Let the games begin!

[...] Congrats to everyone who did get into Teach for America. Because unfortunate for me a small envelope arrived in my mailbox. It's cool though, I'm really okay with it =) I had some strange feeling that it wasn't going to happen tho. On Sunday, a friend and I patched up things, Angela told me she got into UCLA law, work is keeping me very busy and my family is been feeling more like a family. It didn't really feel like the right climate to go. Everyone is happy that I'm staying tho... which makes staying a little bit better. We didn't want you to go anyway. They replied. I guess in my own little way... I didn't wanna go either. It amazing how everything can be in front of you and everything can make sense in just the course of a day.

[The waiting game is an awful game to play] I hate when people validate their happiness on whether or not they have someone. For me, there can be various ways to have happiness, but there's no need to base it on love. Just because someone is not in your life romantically doesn't mean you should be unhappy. Amy and I had this weird crazy conversations about the men in our life, their place in it and why they fit or don't fit. What comes next after all this, and why should I be concerned about this now, when quite possibily my life may be changing in the next couple of months. While we talked about all this, I began to think about my own situation, and past situations, and the situations of the people around me. Could I just be comfortable with my single state, or am I destined to be alone for the rest of my life? (I know not true, but it's that kinda of night) As dramatic as it sounds, I'm not scared at all of walking through life alone. I don't know if that's just me being a cocky only child, but I feel as though I've been convinced that "almost loves" and "unromantic someones" and "mysteryous strangers who care" are enough to fill this so called void in my life. I confuse myself sometimes though. One minute I'm okay, and then the next minute I'm a typical girl again... a typical person wishing for romance that others have. Bitter? Perhaps, because many a times friends have convinced me that our mutual situations are bareable, but not longterm for me not them. The conversation with Amy scared me (in a good way) a little bit, because it made me realize how serious my situation is. Title-less ventures, and strongholds on friendships make me fortunate to have the love that I have... even if it's not romantic it's like the strongest thing I got. I'm lucky... confused I guess when you're potentially going to be a cat lady... you gotta get 'em anyway you can haha =)

me on love

[Counting Down The Days] Your career is about to take a turn for the better, NICOLE. New professional possibilities may come your way today. Be receptive to any invitations or offers you receive. Your advancement may not come in the most traditional of ways, so you need to pay close attention today. Don't overlook something that seems way beyond your capabilities. Remember that a woman's reach should always exceed her grasp. Stretch! WHOA! So like remember that period of time (I'm sure we all have this) When astrocenter.com is erriely on the money? Haha this totally comforted me today (eventhough I've heard nothing from Teach for America) I can't believe that this arrived in my mailbox. It totally made my day. Work has been like whoa! I've been insanely busy. I like it, it's keeping my mind off things. At the same time, I got all paranoid about things. I thought Damn, I wanted this to happen like a couple months ago. Renew my enthusiasm for the job. But instead it comes at the worst of times. A time when I'm ready to jump ship. I mean I have the tools I needed back then to love and be busy with my job. Of all times for it to come why now? I thought it was a sign from higher ups telling me to stay put and not go anywhere, but then I read my horoscope. I'm glad I did... I was about to delete it. Good thing for that. Stay focused at the task at hand. Despite the fact that I'm having a good but busy month at work. Today during spin, there was an old man instructor. He made me laugh. He played songs I'd hear if I were at Rage or something. Yeah, it was weird. He kicked my butt tho. Called me out too. Said "hey NYPD, how you doin', you're lookin good!" (I was wearing my NYPD shirt) He kicked my ass today! On a lighter note... my expense check for this month is going to be AWESOME I'm treating myself to a digital camera finally. Now I just have to figure out which one. Yay! Cool camera for my DC/NY TRIP! Finally! I need to leave the 2.2 megapixel world. Cross your fingers! Stuff is postmarked by tomorrow folks! Eeek!

[Vacation... sort of] Greetings from SD (damn! she's there again?!) Well actually that's what I was thinking. Here I am in SD (again) this time for a little bit of pleasure. I'm actually chillin' in Franny and Jerome's empty apartment. It's great. They're away being sorority something or other and I'm partaking of cable and laundry. Man this is the life. (I have to wake up early for work tomorrow though) Going to catch up on some movie watching tonight. I haven't sat down and watched DVDs in a while. Tomorrow will start my 8 day work week. It's going to be lovely... yes indeed. Anyhow... real quick... maybe you know about this already. But the fantabulous folks at Google my favorite email/search engine/online journaling tool owner, has come up with this great text message aid thingy. I'll probably do a bad job of explaining the whole thing, so you should just check it out for yourself. Google SMS AWESOME! Dang, they are just making life soooo much easier.

[...] It's been really hard to focus lately, I'm just not in the mood to put up with the situations I'm putting up with. Going on a business trip with your supervisor can really show that you're not in the right place and right mind set professionally. seriously I need to find a way. Although I don't feel lost, I know that I'm just not feelin' it my interest has filled it's capacity when it comes to the mundane routine I keep bloggin' about. I'm tired and in awe of other people pursing other things. I want my other things to be in my hands... right now, and although this has been the longest/shortest two weeks of my life, waiting for an answer from the future gods is a painful task. I can taste the freedom. Even if I recieve a "thank you for your consideration but..." at the same time, the thought of leaving Los Angeles for some place new and exciting scares me. Simple things like "am I going to buy a television?" or "how much does it cost to mail my things across the country?" boggle my mind when I'm thinking positively about the situation. I've never really left the nest, the umbillical cord is waiting for that very last snip. TFA would be the true test of independence. I walk through work in a daze. It's crazy... I've got work activities booked up every other week. I keep bringing up ideas... I keep acting like I'm staying... even though I know very much so that I'm getting the heck out of dodge soon. *sigh*

[It's just one thing that got me trippin'] I really wanted to use this for the title of my layout this time around, but didn't know how to do it. Anyway, I'm leaving at the butt crack of dawwwwn to go to SD for work. This time two days, and one night, which is a little easier on me. At the same time I have to drive pretty early and deal with UCSD traffic. That bites. I'm watching American Idol Paula Abdul doesn't know shit. I feel like she's acting the way she does just to be different from Randy and Simon. She's retarded. She should stop talking. Seriously... I mean c'mon... she freakin' likes everything! And clearly, some people aren't that great. This season is kinda weird, at least it wasn't as bad as last season, because last season the good people were droppin' like flies, but this season although they're probably better it's not as entertaining. Like I guess this season it's not so good for me because I don't really have someone I'm rooting for. Everyone is blah. I really liked Mario... but I guess he didn't wanna stay. But the last couple seasons there was always that ONE PERSON I was rooting for. Right now, Nikko Smith is rockin' it for me (I guess if I absolutely had to pick one). I'm kinda fellin' his whole not so cute Usher style LOL. But yea... I also like that just because Papa was a baseball player (a good one at that that was in an episode of The Simpsons. And he does this cute move where he girates his hips while he holds the mic. Ala Tyreese or Usher or something. Haha too cute. I picked up the new Faith Evans Album. Dang... she's not just singin' she's saaaaaangin' lol... good tracks. I like the direction she's going. She's like trying to do thangs ala Mary J. Faith should play up that soulful soul. Shes got the voice for it so she can. I'm going to radio blog some of them... if I have the chance. I need to sleep early. I have to be up at 5AM. (as you can see... I'm getting nervous about you know what so I don't wanna talk about all that... and well yea... One more week til I find out what will happen to me in the next couple months... eek!)

I don't know why my radio blog is still brown... =/

[Good Vibes] Not that kinda vibe you dirty birdie. Dammit... why is this like the first year that I realize that daylight savings time loses an hour during spring, and get one back during the fall. It's hitting me very very very hard. I even stayed an extra hour at work today because it didn't feel like it was time to go home. I didn't really get much done, but yea... I'm savoring the time in the office. I have a kick butt work schedule (as in bad kick my butt) the next few weeks. All this will happen and then rest... and then UCI! LOL... slowly I see myself slippin' and if I'm accepted to TFA I will tell you what I do. (not that care, but I know some of you are curious... okay maybe one.) Please cross your fingers so I can stop talking about it. Today they faked me out... I swear I thought I finally had some news. They send me an email saying that "DC Dates have changed" I thought they gave me DC... it ended up being a general email to everyone about it. Grrrr! Yea I know... I'm impatient. I want to know already. Anyhow, I started running at the gym... again. Not in any time limit for a mile, but just to walk/run on the tredmill. Feels good. My legs are getting tighter... but my gut is still present. Everything is very slowly getting there... but dammit my gut... it's really bad. My mom notices that... all the time. Points it out too... "Why is your stow mack so pat" LOL... you know Filipino moms... brutal honesty at it's finest. Anyhow... I felt like Iverson guarded me in a bball game because my ankles feel BROKE. I need to stretch better when I'm at the gym. Usually I'm just in and out. So today, I walked into Target (yea I know... I was already there, but I really needed some cheap Tylenol and it's close to the gym (if you have a sore throat... take tylenol and advil together... it works I swear!) so there's like this massive digital camera sale going on, and I impusley looked into some of the digital camera prospects. It's time to upgrade. I've had this camera probably since sophomore year of college. I'm still at 2.2 megapixels (I'm sure you notice when I post pictures up) so even though I vowed to walk into that target and get tylenol only. I'm going to go back tomorrow morning and pick up a digital camera from a different location. I know I'm so bad, but for less then 100 bucks... a new digi cam isn't so bad. It's not the best one, but... to get my snapshot fix... these will work. I also have this certificate to the photo place I bought my supplies for my photo class. They have these cameras called holgas that take medium format film. At my old job, we used Mamiyas...which are pretty good medium format cameras (great for picture taking) We used the old ones (mamiya RB67), not the ones here. Gawd... that would be heaven. But those are best for taking portraits. Stupid as this sounds, sometimes I miss Picture People (haha minus Halmark, the money behind the job, most of my co-workers and the stupid uniform) I loved kickin' it with the kids and capturing them being cute. Parents were pretty cool too (most of the time) I was there so long that I saw my customers grow up. Pretty crazy. I wanna go in one day and just take pictures. I wonder if a store will let me do it. I think I'm going to take our SLR into the camera shop. My photography class my senior year renewed my love for photography. Black and white stuff is awesome. When I'm really rich I'm going to be a camera natzi and get a digital SLR. Wow that would be cool.Not heaven, but cool. Changed the color. You like? I saw how the brown looked on my work computer. Nasty! Reminded me of... you know. The P word =) What you think this is Southpark or something? Hehe...

[I wasn't really diggin the Is] Dude... this is crazy people taking justice into their own hands? I mean... everyone knows the signs. When you hit the nipples on the five south on the way to San Diego (haha... you know around the navy base) you see caution signs with a family all running together. It's amusing, but it is kinda of a problem (all jokes aside) But those people in Arizona seem a little too much... I got a lot of stuff done today. Daylight savings time is kick my butt though. It's only 10:30, but it feels like almost 12. I'm so tired. It's been a busy day. Laundry, Gym, and shopping with moms gosh... I did a lot of stuff before she got home, but shopping with her was exhausting. I did buy this cool personal blender, in hopes to use it like a magic bullet but a cheaper version. I want smoothies in the morning. I love them! They are so easy to make too. I just needed a blender, but since no one else here at home will eat them, this personalized thingy was pretty cool. I'm such a sucker for Target. Moms has been all about spending time with me since I started talking to her about TFA and moving. She's been trying to get me to go everywhere with her. Even if it's just to the market. Clingy much? Haha... imagine that for 23 years y0. It's just me and her... I say that all the time, but I mean what did she expect I was going to stay with her forever? She probably did. Not sure if I told you guys this story, but the plummer for our building had come to fix something, and he saw me and said, "Hey I haven't seen you... you still live here? I thought you would have moved out." I know he probably didn't mean anything by it, but he made a good point. It's time to move out! Why have I not done it yet? =) Don't answer that!

II What Happened? II I used to be funny. No seriously. A long time ago... David and I had this conversation about past entries and our blogs and how they've changed, and well... I remember we were talking about how hilarious we used to be. The stupid random stuff we would talk about and how the jokes would go for post and post. Somewhere inbetween my junior and senior year of college, life got all depressing and so did my journal. Everything was so serious, and nothing was as funny as it used to be. What the heck happened? I know we all seek out certain objectives when journalizing. My objective was never to be a comedian in this webspace, but I just remember when that was possible. Nowadays everything is about life, work and how "insert a feeling" I'm feeling today. It's so mundane. Could it be that my blog has gotten so routine? I'm so concerned about documenting (this/that that/this) in my life that I forget that sometimes it's not that necessary. There's no need to write your heart away like everyday. That's just... not needed. Then again, I like doing so. I was thinking about this while I stumbled upon our new office managers xanga. She's pretty funny. She has her funny moments in real life, but her xanga is really funny. And because I want to protect her privacy (and only because if she knows I'm reading her xanga she might edit herself LOL ) I don't want to let her know I'm reading it (and I was close to slipping a couple times at work because she was bringing up things she xangaed about and like I was gonna say "I know") LOL But anyhow, she's funny. You'd never think she would be but she is (and if you're reading this HI! hehe =) ) but yea... what happened to me? In the past two years I've become jaded. It's so sad. Somewhere along the line, I became so so... not carefree. Always on the defensive, and never taking anything for face value. Have my romantic endevours turned me into an overprotective hag? See... and you wonder why I have all those interesting nicknames for them. But I digress... we're not talking about my emotional issues... we're talking about being funny =) Then, I get comments from people I know, and they make me feel better. Using words "hilarious" and "funny" make me feel better. All I really want is acceptance in this blog world. Don't label me... love me. Okay, I'm being retarded. Moving along, Mei and I went to the Galleria (Glendale one) and Loreal was there giving out free stuff. They slapped a wig on me to see how I'd look with plum undertones. Something like that... I don't know. We took pictures in our wigs, but Mei says no one can see (I'm sure I'll show you guys anyway) I went to DNB (Dave and Busters) with Charlie. Bro is always workin' nights so it was cool to kick it with him Thursday. Went with T and a buncha her friends. I love that place. Played a lot of basketball and got Charlie a DNB cup for change. My Co-Worker says that there's a DNB in Providance and it was the place to be while she was in college. (Vik... Did I ever tell you that my co-worker went to Brown? She graduated the same year as you too!) On our long trips for work she always tells me her Brown stories. I always make fun of her. Northridge, California or Providance, Rhode Island. Haha... which would you choose? It's like the battle of the century! (haha I'm kidding!) She says, I'd never make it on the East Coast with my sunshine lovin' mentality. I'm always depressed when it rains here in Los Angeles. She was like "How do expect to live in New York!" (She's the one of the three peeps at work who know I applied for TFA) and I was like "I don't know, I'll think about it when I'm there." C'mon only 2% of the WORLD has climate like LA =) Yay it's Spring Forward! Maybe I can forward past all the days yuckiness and start the spring brand new. Maybe.

II Layout Loser II Since the server went all weird (I'm not complaining... the customer service for hostitnow is awesome! And I got a two month refund even though I don't pay monthly! Yes! Haha I bought IPOD accessories on ebay with that!) I decided to do a new layout. As a joke, I wanted to duplicate my xanga... (my not really written in xanga... I swear I use it to comment!) but then hours later I went from a pale green and yellow to a very ethnic site LOL (brown and yellow? jk) The green was kinda hard on the eyes... and like I had two columns and all this weird stuff. So after hours and hours of loserness... this is what it came to. Still pretty basic. Still blogger... still pretty average. I think I'm getting better =) it'd be way cool if someone taught me how to install MT though! Tonight I was invited into more losersome and see The Roots at USC for free-z but as the third wheel. I knew it was bad to begin with because first off... it was a free concert, so I'm sure that everyone and their momma was gonna be there, plus it was an all day festival, so most peeps probably got there before they were going to come on. Parking is always a bitch near USC and again... I wasn't trying to be the third wheel. Third wheeling it bites... and sadly... I do it all the time. Yea, it's that kind of night. So to cheer myself up from my loserdome... I decided to redesign my layout and just veg out. I added on a radio.blog. I know those are lame and I told myself I wouldn't do one, but like honey says... music is for sharing. Life gets better than this right? Yea, it's that kind of night.

yea... I'm missing pictures... sit tight folks... I have to rebuild! grrrr!!!

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