[Insecurities...]

Sometimes there are those moments that transport you back to times when you didn�t really like yourself.

What do I mean by this? Well I guess I mean those moments when you overreact to certain situations. The mid to early twenties is a bitch sometimes� I don�t want to overreact and I don�t want to retreat back to those times of immaturity and moments that did not make me adult. I know that it�s not a big deal, but at the same time� I�m making it a big deal.

I want to be entitled to these moments� at the same time� I already play out the scenario in my head. Get all the answers I need and find ways to solve that problem. Do you ever run down those situations in your head? Do you ever self diagnose the problem and realize you�re just playing yourself? Where�s the fun in that? Why can�t I be entitled to my overreacted moment?

Well� for myself anyway. It�s just because I�ve made myself into this rational person. And yes, I do have my moments, but the only person tormented by these moments is myself and no one else. Even if I attempt to try and talk it out with someone, I feel like I don�t even want to bring it up because it�s stupid and I�m again� overreacting. Some would say that if the situation was bothering me I should have said something, but again� these moments don�t happen very often, but when they do� damn it�s a bitch.

So� I decided to just be a hermit today. Shake off the moment that made me feel like I was an immature teenager wanting to be liked by her peers and just slept it off.

What a way to start the new year. LOL

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On a lighter note, I had an awesome vacation that just didn�t seem to be long enough. Maybe I should have taken off longer then a week and done two. It would have been nice. I went to Mexico with da fam. Just Rosarito and Ensenada. Mexico (or at least mexicali) isn�t really a desirable place to be, and nothing is really super cheap or anything. I did go ATVing� and I did take some awesome pictures (which I will gather up in the post after this) My new years was pretty low key and yea� I don�t know. Vacations come few and far between.

Back to the rat race on Monday.