[Ready]

I sat in the center of things, smiling about my accomplishments. As flash filled the room and I was surrounded by my accomplishments. As diva-ness filled the photo session and everyone patiently waited, one of my volunteers replied to me in Tagalog �I�m staying because of your smile� How could I say no to you when you�re working so hard? She said.

I didn�t know what it meant, but for my week over in hours month that I just had in my current career and simultaneously starting school for my future career just totally overwhelmed me this month. I worked so hard to improve the way things used to be but at the same time it�s hard to put in that work when I know that I�ll be leaving soon.

The countdown has started.  

All my favorite and not so favorite things about my job were in a big room today and acted like some kind of symbolic sum up of the last year and seven months. I felt good to have it all there in the same place right in front of my face. I feel like my soul was saying goodbye to this chapter in my life and hello to the brand new journey I�ve started on.

I know it sounds so symbolically corny, but it felt that way.

I was always apprehensive about my job from the get go. I started it abruptly and juggled it and my FilAm Arts internship for two months. It�s funny how now toward its end I�m juggling again, school and work. Work always being the one that isn�t as important as school is. Job always second choice, and as hard as I do work, it is never number one. It never has been� and I guess at this point it never will be.

Today I was ready to say good bye. No I�m going to stay to finish this or we should do this before I go. Today I felt like I did all I needed to do in my job. Accomplish all that I set for myself from the very beginning, and know that when they look back at my time spent there, they�ll remember how good it was.

Because I won�t =)