[You Win Some... You Lose Some]

If there�s anything that I learned from my time at the Triad, is that for everyone who is satisfied with your work, there will be that many people who are upset with you for it. You may think that you�re doing a good job, but there will always be that one person who will think you could have performed a bit better.

I�ve learned not to take criticism too seriously, because I know that especially if you�re participating in an event that have more then one person watching you publicly you�ll never satisfy them all. Although part of me is a perfectionist and wants to execute everything with the perfect degree of accuracy as best as I can, I really can�t sweat the small stuff. I can�t afford to right now. Not with everything that is on my plate.

Especially right now in my field of work, I can�t expect everyone to be pleased with my actions because I have so many people trying to micromanage me. Sometimes I want to shout and say �Leave me alone! Can you do all this? Will you attempt to do all this? How do you expect me to work so hard and not burnout! Do you realize that I�m just one person?! Dammit� let me handle this� please trust that I can handle this! It�s best for all of us involved because then I can get everything that we need accomplished, accomplished. I�m really doing this for the greater good of all of us.�

PHEW I really needed that =)

Normally, I�d be upset, but I�m in no place to be upset. I just have to brush my shoulders off and just do it the way that I do. After venting to my supervisor she told me that, just do what you need to do. You�re leaving soon. It won�t matter anymore. I was very surprised to hear that from of all people� my supervisor.

Four months in counting, this job will just be a memory. I doubt that any of the people who stress importance to me now, will care about me when they don�t need me. This Saturday, I broke the news to one of my favorite people associated with the Triad. She said We�ll along as it is for advancement�and gave me a sad look. I�ve grown very attached to them and will be very sad to not be able to talk to them after I�m gone, but I know I will try, but yes� in a few months all I will be is Nicole the girl that used to work at the Triad.

And that�s all they will know or care about me from there.

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on some other ish�

I can�t wait until Neyo�s album comes out. He�s really great. A fresh new look at Neo Soul and the whole R&B world. Jaheim this Tuesday too� yes!

Can I just say that Grey�s Anatomy is like one of the best shows out there right now?! Gosh� the show this week was intense. IF you have not started watching this show yet� these last two episodes will convince you to! It was one of those shows that I started watching because I was just home on Sunday�s but dude� it�s super good! I�m happy to be home to watch it.

Not sure if my movie day is going to happen anymore =( but hopefully it will. Hope Monday won�t kick my butt and that Tues/Wed will be good R&R For sure!