[Free]

My nosiness divulged information about him that I doubt he�d ever tell me himself. And now, although I was over it and said good bye in December� it�s still hard to believe that I�m getting the closure I need.

Of course, I�m a girl, with typical double standards. For the last year or so, all I�ve done to him is push him away and talk about other boys who ruled my world. I was showing him he wasn�t it and it was just my way of telling him flee or fight. I guess he fled, and I didn�t want to fight. I didn�t need to because there was nothing worth fighting for anymore.

My nosiness is happy for him, because he deserves to be happy. At the same time, I remember the good times, things said and dreams had about weddings, children and all the mushy stuff you think about when you care about someone. I guess I�m mad because I never got to be honest. I never got to tell him off� and well� I�ll never ever know how he really felt about me. Nothing will ever give me the closure I really want, but first and foremost,  I always told myself that the minute he got with someone� I would get the closure I wanted.

Closure. Granted.

I really don�t know how I should feel about this, but for the most part I feel good� doing the obligatory sad music stuff (even though there�s really no need to) and happy that I�m starting the year off right.

No more excess baggage. No more empty promises. No more feelings left unfelt.

The deal was broken in January anyway huh girls? =)