[I'm exhausted]

I�m exhausted.

I took some time off work this week just because I needed to not think about the Triad for a little bit (because you know� they have a way of just totally invading your thoughts and minds) plus I had to jump start my teacher observations, so instead of being able to sleep in and vege out the last three days that I�ve been off from work, I�ve been waking up hella early for teacher observations.

I�m exhausted.

The blackberry is all hooked up and ready to go. It�s been helpful, but you know I shouldn�t be so connected to the world. I like it though, it�s a really cool phone. I just need to soop it up a bit and make it look tight. Ironically someone who needed the services of my work said, �I just need to know that you got my email� if you have a blackberry or blueberry or whatever� please just respond so I know you got my email.� During dinner I annoyingly answered his email and said, �Yes, I got your messages but I�ve been attending to personal matters and will get back to you on Monday.�

I�m exhausted.

These teacher observations are crazy. It�s really giving me a good idea of what I want to do, and what I don�t want to do. First off I know for sure that I don�t want to do junior high (I�ve always known, but I wanted to double check) second, I�m kind of glad that I did not get Teach for America.

Let�s back up a bit. Remember last year around this time I was in the application process for Teach for America? It really was just way out of the Triad and out of California for that matter. I was way to immature to grasp the whole concept of what it truly could have been if I actually got it. I visited Alex�s school on Thursday and he and another teacher friend was talking about TFA and how they wished they could have done it the way that I was doing it. I couldn�t imagine having to keep up with school work and having to deal with students that need so much more extra attention that you are able to give. I have to give these teachers props because seriously� it is a lot of work. I don�t know if I could do that. Not that I�m counting myself out right away� but I don�t know. It must be tough.

On the flip side of that, I�ve been doing teacher observations at my old high school. It�s been nice going back. I�m very happy that my teachers remember me, because I was afraid that they would not. I�ve been observing my old history teacher who probably played a big role in me becoming a history major and one of my old English teachers. It�s been very interesting. All of my old teachers were saying that, �You should come back to teach.� Although it feels comfortable and nice to have the opportunity to come back to comfort and be in a very familiar environment, I don�t know if I�d want to do that. I still feel like an AHS student, even though I know that would probably change once I�m in the situation. I don�t know. It�s only been 13 hours of observation� so we�ll see.

I�m exhausted.

I can�t wait to leave the Triad. I�m not unhappy� but I think I just need to go on some kind of mini sabbatical. I HAVE a lot of homework that isn�t exactly due right now, but due soon. It�s going to be a long March. I already know it.

I�m exhausted.

More later�