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The journal can now be found at nicola.super-fresh.net.

I wanted something light =) actually I made a big boo boo while fixing this http://nicola.super-fresh.net/wordpress/ I think I really will have to save this for when I have time off =)

[ain't misbehavin']

Apologizes for the 15 day (or so) delay in a real entry, I hate when that kind of break happens. I always want to write entries, but I�m loyal to my journal/blog. I love to devote my undivided attention to my writing because again� like I�ve mentioned a thousand times� this thing is a process.

I will one day look back on these entries and laugh at my pathetic life and be delighted that I took the time to write these thought provoking (ha!) entries that blows your mind hehe�

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It�s been a crazy week and a half, and I�ve been acting silly.

Stuff has maintained and the gloomy storm that was March, is not so gloomy anymore. I�m glad because I�m much more fun when I�m not depressed.  I�ve maintained the pace of life and kind of gotten over to the adjustment of going to school and being a full time student. I�ve managed to stick to goals (or adjust to stick to goals) and really just enjoy everything. Be silly, and have fun. Fuck it� I�m leaving soon, I�m having vacation soon, school is almost over.

I�m not jaded, not that I don�t care� but I�m silly and I�m having fun.

I�m asking myself to enjoy my pre-adulthood one last time. I love laughs and jokes, and stupid things done. I�ve been joking around with my co-workers a lot. Why? I don�t know because I can. Helen (our admin super hero) is hilarious. I make fun of her, we crack jokes. We gossip over work IM and I sit on her paper shredder while we talk. I�ll miss her when I�m gone.  

In class, I sit next to this really cool group of people who are very funny and joke around in class with me. We�re the laptop crew. We google stuff and we look at stuff online while people do their presentations. Today, my ADD kicked in (I really don�t have ADD or ADHD, I just have a skewed attention span when it comes to moments when I�m bored� just zone out and act like a bad student who won�t pay attention in class). We were looking for new jobs and looking up our classmates on myspace. We didn�t get too far because we didn�t know the people in our classes last names. We kept trying to figure it out, but we couldn�t. It was funny trying to figure it out though.

My classmate friend had this excel thing on her laptop that had you put in your name and have it generate what your job should be. I put my full name and it said, �superhero� I thought that was really awesome. We put in the names of other people in our class, who�s full names we knew, and it was good times. The icing on the cake was when we were trying to look up one of our other classmates on myspace. You know how on myspace, the intro page says, Hello, �username here�! The classmate we were trying to search gave us a hint with his username (he was a laptop away looking at his myspace) he had some weird user name that didn�t include his name at all. In our sillyness, we put in Hello,hisusername!! (his username had an extra ! and this is during presentations mind you) and yea he was like That�s not my user name, they say hello to everyone. And we started cracking up! It�s like duh� hello isn�t his user name� it was funny because I was just quietly giggling, and the minute we could� we started cracking up. I couldn�t believe we made that dumb mistake. Although it was not biggy, I thought it was very funny, but then again� I�ve been acting really silly lately.

The crew that sits in front of us was wondering what the commotion was. Another classmate friend (sort of) was I guess surprised at me acting this way because usually I�m very nerd like (I think the guy who sits the to the left of me has been a bad influence on me) but whatever� I don�t care.

I�m having fun.

I think this is me trying to savor my silly pre adult life that I have been living for the last two years. Think about it, my job let me be a serious adult, yet have fun like I was in college seasonally =) Where do I have room to act like an adult consistently? I don�t know� I think Jan/Feb the serious side of me had to show, March was an emotional breakdown and April and May is going to be easy breezy fun. I�m going out like that� the only way I know how to do.

I�m such a class clown lol =)
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I did my work a favor and told them that I�d be leaving June 1st. Because of how difficult my job was to fill in the past, I told them that April will be a good month to start looking for my position. With June 1st being my last day (15 days before or after if needed). First off, some of you are reading that comment, and thinking that was a dumb thing to do. At first, I thought it was when applicants for my job started applying and looking good. We�re at a point in the season where it gets busy, so it�d be kind of hard to train someone new and have them go to busy drives� and my boss said it was okay for me to stay until June 1st, but I was a little worried. I asked my NEW supervisor to see how she felt about me staying until then and she said it was okay. I�m worried, but you know� it�s my bad for being nice. Maybe ending earlier then expected will be a good thing. I don�t know. C'est La Vie!
-------------------I�m starting a list of things to do when my free time approaches. Why am I so excited, over emphasizing this time off? Well, my OLD supervisor sent an email about her leaving. She had been with the company for a very long time. In the email she addressed to everyone what she would be doing after her last day (today) she said, I always used to say, I�d really like to do ______ if I had more time.

I thought about her statement today while at work and school. I never want to say that, especially since I�m so young. I thought about the decisions that I made to leave work a certain date, be unemployed over the summer and have some me time. It�s kind of weird because I never had time off before. I�ve worked through every break, and every summer vacation. I�ve given up weekends upon weekends for the last two years almost. I�ve worked since I was seventeen and this will be the first time I�ll ever have been unemployed. Thinking about myself is a hard thing for me. It�s going to be like a mini sabbatical I think.  

I�ve never cherished my free time when I had it, and now that I�ll have a huge chunk of it� I don�t know what to do with myself.

Suggestions? (hehe yea I know maybe I should update my site with a new layout instead of the blogger one right? That�s on my list for sure)

More later�

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/11610503 Boondocks on hiatus for 6 months! =( boo! And yea, I was down from the start, when he was making guest appearences at CSUN and I was gawking about how cute he was! He signed my book too! you succcckas! =) jk...